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    1: Talk about the first time you watched your favorite movie
    Until now I cannot decide which movie is my favorite. I have a lot from my childhood but I feel like it keeps changing as the years go by. But my top ones would be Clueless and Casper: The Friendly Ghost. I am a movie buff so choosing one out of all the movies that I love is tough. But for those two mentioned above, I cannot remember the first time I watched them. Everything is a blur except knowing who I watched them with… Clueless (VHS) with my aunt, and Casper with my uncle. And I loved both movies, until this day actually.

    2: Talk about your first kiss

    It was a one second thing that was followed by a lot of make outs with someone I liked but was not official with (and never did). I was very tempted and I loved making out, don’t judge me. Do I regret the kiss? No. I regret kissing the guy though, yuck.

    3: Talk about the person you had the most intense romantic feelings for
    I have loved nothing else since you came.

    4: Talk about the thing you regret most so far

    I fucked up my time and chance in University so badly. I will never move on.

    5: Talk about the best birthday you’ve had.
    I was in Grade 6. I honestly have no idea until this day if everything was planned.. but anyway.. My elementary school had four floors. My class decided to do our Art project in the playground because our project was really messy to do. After we had finished, I decided to clean up for some of my friends, and one of them had asked for my ID. I think I asked why but I forgot her response. I gave my ID anyway because I trusted her. As I went up the stairs (since my classroom was on the third floor), I honestly had no clue something was happening. Then I walked in the classroom and heard them yell surprise with food being served to my classmates. Of course, my mother was there, and some of my teachers as well. I also saw my face (picture on my ID) had been sketched on the board with Happy Birthday Mara greeting written on it as well. I felt so special. Durr, my mom planned to feed my classmates.. but the whole thing? I’m not sure. I think she talked to my classmates about that. 2006 definitely was the best year for me.

    6: Talk about the worst birthday you’ve had.
    Hmmm…  I am not sure. I think one was when my mother was in Dubai and I was still in the Philippines. Another were my birthdays here in Canada.. but that’s just me not really thinking.. Maybe because they are not as worst compared to other people’s worst birthdays.

    7: Talk about your biggest insecurity.

    My teeth. My skin. My belly. My voice. Me.

    8: Talk about the thing you are most proud of.
    My personality. My knack for things. My love for my family. My loyalty to my friends.

    9: Talk about little things on your body that you like the most.
    Nothing on my body but definitely my nose and my fingers.

    10: Talk about the biggest fight you’ve ever had.

    I think I was twelve years old when I had a cat fight with my aunt. We were fighting over food. We had a feud back then because our age isn’t that far apart and maybe she saw me as her competition back then. I’m not really sure but we just get into each other’s nerves a lot, and that came a day when we really just both exploded. We are very okay now though.

    11: Talk about the best dream you’ve ever had.

    I don’t really take note of my dreams so I may have forgotten good ones. But from the top of my head, maybe, it would be that shallow dream that I had that I was apparently dating Zayn Malik, and it was followed by more dreams with me dating him. Really weird but I ain’t complaining.

    12: Talk about the worst dream you’ve ever had.

    I had horrible, frightening dreams.. dark ones, some very dark ones. I choose to not entail any detail.

    13: Talk about the first time you had sex/how you imagine your first time.

    I haven’t done it so I am not sure really. I want mine to be really intimate and special though.

    14: Talk about a vacation.

    A vacation where I can finally bring my mother to her dream country which is France where she can go to Paris… Yes that vacation will be the best vacation I will ever have for I will make my mother the happiest woman in the world.

    15: Talk about the time you were most content in life.
    I would not know actually.. because at the moment, I am not even satisfied.. and when I’m not satisfied, I am not contented. And to choose things from before would be utter bullshit since I was young. Everything was easier back then.

    16: Talk about the best party you’ve ever been to.

    Nothing so far. Ha! I want to host a good one though… someday

    17: Talk about someone you want to be friends with.
    Celebrity wise, I’d say Toni Gonzaga, Kylie Jenner and Khloe Kardashian. They are just three of those celebrities that are so cool, and they have strong personalities just like me. Also, they are loyal, and I value that a lot. But uhm, if I cannot pick a celebrity, hmmmm, I would say, none that I know of.. instead, I’d describe a person I want to be friends with. I would say a person who is loyal, friendly, trustworthy (hard to find this nowadays), generous but is outgoing, loves Fashion, Travel, Food and Pop Culture like I do, someone who I can count on..

    18: Talk about something that happened in elementary school.

    A lot of things happened in elementary school, memorable things. But let me talk about something that really upset me. Until this day, when I think about it, I get really upset still. I competed for Damathon, it is this checkers game that involved math in it. I was winning, and for some odd reason, the teachers wanted to take a break so we did. We left the board in the room. When we came back, the fucking idiotic unsupervised kids ruined it. I’m sorry for my language, but I am really upset! I WAS WINNING. The teachers responsible did not even consider the fact that I completely beat my opponent already.. but they were so insensitive that they made us redo it. Of course I was upset, I wasn’t thinking anymore, and I wasn’t focused. I lost. FUCK IT, FUCK THEM. WHATEVER.

    19: Talk about something that happened in middle school.

    Middle school? Hmmm.. We don’t really have middle school there in the Philippines. I attended Grade 8 here, but only for a couple of months so there is not really much to say. All I know is, I was culturally shocked, I get pretty nostalgic thinking about it from time to time because I was young then.. and God, what I would do to relive my youngin’ days. But, every damn day, I always could not wait to go home.

    20: Talk about something that happened in high school.
    High school here in Canada: I was bullied. Yes it is real. Yes it happened to me. Yes, one time, I ate my lunch in the washroom. Just like every one else who experienced it. Bullying is real. Bulling is cruel. Bullying needs to stop.

    21: Talk about a time you had to turn someone down.
    Have I turned someone down already?! I cannot seem to remember. I think maybe those people who ask me for donation? The ones who are sketchy? Yeah those. I turn them down. Just does not seem right. Besides, I am really broke.

    22: Talk about your worst fear.
    Just the thought of it sends me to my grave already.. how much more if I talk about it and write it down here?

    23: Talk about a time someone turned you down.
    I have been rejected so many times. But my favorite one is when I got friend-zoned. That is all. 

    24: Talk about something someone told you that meant a lot.I had been told a lot of things that meant a lot but something really stood out.. It came from someone I barely talked to anymore. I was tweeted by someone I had a nice friendship with (too bad it lasted) in grade 12 (We were friends in grade 9 until the first semester of grade 10, then it went downhill). I was thanked, and was told that I always meant well and that I should not worry because I will go far in life. See something like that from someone who I thought hated me as well really touched my heart. And whenever I feel down, when I remember that tweet.. I just start believing in myself again. Too bad he deactivated his twitter. I was not able to screen-capture it. 

    25: Talk about an ex-best friend.
    Sigh, what a waste of friendship. I wish you just believed in me instead.

    26: Talk about things you do when you’re sick.
    It depends how sick I am.. but usually, I just sleep, cry in pain if I am in pain, eat, eat, repeat.

    27: Talk about your favorite part of someone else’s body.
    Of the opposite sex: arms, shoulders, lips and perfect jawline.

    For females: Long legs, collarbones (No homo, I just wish I had these), and eyes.

    28: Talk about your fetishes.
    Food. It’s gotta be food.

    29: Talk about what turns you on.
    Guys who smell good, can dress well, tall, having a talent in dancing or singing and can cook are an added bonus. Everything is outlined and explained here: http://scarlettscrollonfire.blogspot.ca/2013/08/i-confess-what-i-find-incredibly-sexy.html <- I wrote this by the way.

    30: Talk about what turns you off.
    Sadly, I was not able to write the opposite but uhm, okay, guys who have bad hygiene. Arrogant guys really turn me off.

    31: Talk about what you think death is like.
    Terrifying. Depressing. A lifetime of grief. 

    32: Talk about a place you remember from your childhood.
    My old house where I grew up in. The first house ever I lived at. It was a huge house. I did everything there, I watched my favorite movies there for the first time, I played there, I bathe myself on a basin (lol). I miss the swings, the plants, the gigantic Mango trees, the coconut trees.. We had a long driveway. Our front yard was the bomb. Man, I cannot believe I only appreciated it now.

    33: Talk about what you do when you are sad.
    When I am sad I usually want to escape from the sadness and the pain. If I could not travel elsewhere, I just sleep away the pain.

    34: Talk about the worst physical pain you’ve endured.
    Oh my goodness, I would say the pain I get in my eye. I always get eye strain. I started getting eye strain ever since I was younger and until this day, I still get it. And yes, it is more painful now. Whenever I go to the doctors, they would not give me a cause, they usually say I scratched it. But seriously? I scratch my eye yearly and more than once a year? Sigh. I hate it, the pain is very unbearable.. I would not wish it on anybody.

    35: Talk about things you wish you could stop doing.
    Not going to expose what, but here’s my open letter to it: I wish I could stop doing you. I am so addicted to the feeling I get when I do you. Oh I know it’s a sin, but this time, I will try to stop myself from doing it.

    36: Talk about your guilty pleasures.
    Shopping, and food a lot of food.

    37: Talk about someone you thought you were in love with.
    Thought?! Meaning you really did not? I had no one. When I say I’m in love, I am sure.

    38: Talk about songs that remind you of certain people.
    I am too lazy though. Kay, I will try…

    • With A Smile by South Border will always remind me of my grade 6 classmates, and my grade 6 memories as a whole.
    • Come Clean - Hilary Duff (A-duh, THE LAGUNA BEACH CAST)

    Okay, that’s all I have.

    39: Talk about things you wish you’d known earlier.
    I wish I had known that I will be where I am now, because if I knew, I would have changed things differently. Well, not because I am unhappy of where I am now, I am happy, just wished I tried harder before. 

    40: Talk about the end of something in your life.
    The end of something in my life?! Friendships?! But I do not really regret any friendships lost.. I mean, they were mostly toxic. I swear though.


    It’s crazy how real life just got after high school. I graduated with this dude, we talked from time to time but wasn’t close. He has a rare heart disease if you have a heart please donate! He needs $750,000. He has 18 days left. It does not matter about the amount, the thought counts!

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